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  Truly Beloved

  True Gentlemen, Book 11

  Grace Burrowes

  Grace Burrowes Publishing

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  Contents

  Dedication

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Dedication

  To those who grieve

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  Truly Beloved by Grace Burrowes

  True Gentlemen, Book 11

  Chapter One

  The lady stalking across the frozen garden had apparently passed from the brave phase of widowhood into the indomitable phase. Her unrelievedly black attire showed in stark contrast to the winter-white landscape, and her brisk movements contrasted to deep stillness surrounding her.

  Fabianus Haviland, Viscount Penweather, sensed the woman’s determination from her stride, her posture, the measured speed with which she covered the dreary ground. An indefinable instinct told him she’d been recently bereaved. This was not a dowager of longstanding, but rather, a woman new to her grief and bent on besting it.

  “My sister comes to pay her weekly call,” Grey Dorning, Earl of Casriel said, passing Fabianus a tot of brandy. “To your health.”

  “And yours,” Fabianus replied, silently toasting the lady’s fortitude as well. Some widows never reached the indomitable stage. They remained paralyzed for years by the shock of a spouse’s passing, becoming vague, faded creatures whom family worried over and resented by turns.

  Casriel took the place beside Fabianus at the window. “Lady Daisy has made it through the first three months of widowhood. My wife, who has reason to know, claims that’s the hardest part.”

  Fabianus took a sip of fine libation, savoring the mellow burn in his vitals. “Everyone grieves differently. For some the condolence calls are the greater difficulty, for others the early days without any socializing are the worst tribulation.” For still others, the occasional widower, for example, the real torment began when life was supposed to return to normal, which it could never, ever do.

  Casriel eyed him speculatively. “I forgot you once had something of a reputation.”

  Fabianus’s nickname in the less genteel clubs had been The Widow’s Revenge, and he—dimwitted cockerel—had found that a source of amusement. The whole business had started out innocently enough, with a few merry widows popping out at him from shadowed alcoves. His breeding organs had popped out of his breeches with equal regularity, and a pattern had formed.

  He’d soon learned that some widows sought to be pursued, some sought to be temporarily caught, some sought nothing other than affectionate friendship.

  The woman in the garden stopped at the fountain in the center of the formal parterres. The month being February, any body of water would be covered with a sheet of ice. Her ladyship toed through the dusting of snow until she found a stout stick, which she jabbed at the interior of the fountain.

  “She’s breaking the ice for the birds and squirrels,” Casriel said. “My father taught me to do that. I’m not sure who taught Daisy. She’s the youngest daughter, and while not exactly a stranger to me, she also married before the rest of us. I am ordered by my countess to reacquaint myself with her. One hardly knows where to begin in such a fraught endeavor, but aided by my—”

  “My lord, excuse me.” Fabianus set down his drink. “Your garden has been invaded by a demon sprite, and I must notify my nursery staff.” Fabianus had known dragging Pandora along on this trip was ill-advised, but then, leaving the child to wreak havoc in Hampshire would have been patently stupid.

  “My gracious,” Casriel said, eyeing the scene in the garden and taking another sip of his drink. “Intrepid little thing.”

  Casriel could afford to be amused. He wasn’t responsible for the imp scampering around a snowy garden clad in nothing more than a pair of unlaced boots.

  Fabianus paused at Dorning Hall’s terrace entrance long enough to snatch his cloak before facing the frigid air.

  “Pandora Haviland, you will stop this nonsense at once.” He walked, he did not run, across the terrace. “For shame, child, to behave in such a manner.”

  Lady Daisy had tossed her stick away and left the fountain. She’d also withdrawn a small white muslin bag from a pocket in her black skirts.

  Pandora veered right, down a path that would intersect with Lady Daisy’s. Fabianus did not favor sprinting after the girl, but neither could he allow her to cavort unclad in the elements.

  “Pandora,” Lady Daisy called, shaking her little muslin bag. “Are the pirates after you?”

  Pandora changed course again, this time heading straight for Lady Daisy. “I’m a pirate,” the child bellowed. “I have escaped Royal Navy!”

  What fool put such fancies into an already imaginative head, and why must those boots be untied? Visions of a little smashed nose, a scarred chin, chipped teeth, bloody knees, and endless tears filled Fabianus’s mind.

  He stalked after the child onto the path that led to the fountain, resisting with every footfall the urge to simply run Pandora to earth. A footman in Penweather livery and a nursemaid with her cap askew pelted onto the terrace and a skidded to a halt at the top of the steps.

  “I have booty,” Lady Daisy announced, extracting some sort of sweet from the bag, tossing the treat into the air, and catching it in her mouth. “Golden lemon drops, purloined from the crown’s dockside warehouses. Who will steal my treasure in these dark, treacherous alleys?”

  The result of this speech was for Pandora to gleefully attempt to chase her ladyship, who at the opportune moment turned and snatched the child onto her hip. The widow was nimble, and strong, for Pandora, at five years of age, was no sylph.

  “I have taken the fair princess prisoner,” Lady Daisy announced. “A beautiful maiden who will surely bring a fine ransom.”

  “Papa, pay the rancid!” Pandora called. “I want a lemon drop.”

  The child wanted a sound birching, but Fabianus could not bring himself to heed Nanny’s guidance in that regard. Pandora was so little, and much of the time she was somewhat biddable.

  “Commodore Lord Penweather,” Lady Daisy called, “what shall I do with our prisoner?”

  Casriel had joined the gawkers on the terrace, and he still looked thoroughly entertained. Clearly, his children were of the well-behaved sort.

  “She’s to be taken to the brig,” Fabianus retorted, approaching Lady Daisy. “You lot, make yourselves useful.” The pair on the terrace trotted down into the garden, while Fabianus draped his cloak around Pandora’s chubby form. “My lady, I do thank you, and I apologize as well for Pandora’s unruly behavior.”

  Lady Daisy managed to hold the child on her hip with one arm while a
rranging the cloak with the other.

  “I had gone too long without making the acquaintance of a fellow pirate,” she said, passing the girl to the footman. “Pleased to make your acquaintance, Lord Penweather. Casriel warned me you’d be visiting, but I thought you weren’t expected until tomorrow.”

  Fabianus bowed, though why was Casriel idling about when he ought to be making proper introductions?

  “I am at your service, my lady. The horses made better time down from Hampshire than expected.” Frozen roads had advantages over muddy roads.

  “Lady Daisy Fromm, pleased to make your acquaintance.” She tossed off a brisk curtsey and took Fabianus by the arm. “I hadn’t realized you had arrived, else I would not have intruded on my brother’s household. You and Casriel attended university together, am I correct?”

  She was a small woman, particularly compared to Fabianus, but she was steering him, physically directing his steps to the terrace and conversationally setting his feet on path of small talk and pleasantries.

  She was also pretty, or as pretty as any fair-complected lady could be when wearing weeds. She had the unusual lavender-blue Dorning eyes, and her gaze was quite direct. Her features were not exactly delicate—the chin firm, the nose a bit bold—but the whole was pleasingly feminine and set off by a somewhat full mouth.

  “Your brother tells me you are recently bereaved, my lady,” Fabianus said as they ascended to the terrace. “My condolences on your loss.”

  She gazed out over the snowy garden, at the crows now squawking and flapping at fountain.

  “My thanks for your kind words, my lord. You are without a coat. Let’s get you out of the cold, shall we?”

  Fabianus revised his earlier of assessment of her as she escorted him back to the Dorning Hall library. She was not in the indomitable phase of widowhood. Lady Daisy was simply, absolutely, unto her soul, indomitable. The intriguing question was, why had an earl’s pampered daughter had to develop that trait, much less raise it to a high art?

  And then another question popped into Fabianus’s head: Who had taught this lady to play pirates and to entrap escaped prisoners with a smile and a promise of lemon drops?

  Losing a spouse, even a spouse of middling qualities, was many blows all in one.

  Erickson DeQuervain Fromm had pitched from his horse while riding home on a frosty fall night and expired where he’d landed. The abruptness of his passing had been the first blow, leaving Daisy figuratively jumping at shadows.

  What great upheaval would life throw at her next? Was little Henry coming down with a lung fever? Would the Americans declare war on Britain again? If a youngish squire who’d practically been born in the saddle could end his life at a stile he’d jumped hundreds of times, then the King might abdicate and the sea rise up to inundate Britain.

  Finding Viscount Penweather in Casriel’s garden had thus set Daisy off on several mental flights. Had she forgotten what day it was? Immediately following Eric’s death, when the routine of going to market, making calls, and attending the church committee meetings had been taken from her, she’d become that disoriented.

  Her next fear was that Casriel had told her of company at the Hall other than Lord Penweather, and the entire conversation had slipped her mind.

  But no. Penweather explained his presence and more than that, he offered the standard platitudes with a sort of dry dispatch that relieved Daisy of awkwardness. Then too, Penweather looked at her, not at her bonnet brim, not at the frogs of her black wool cloak, not at the winter-bare Dorsetshire hills in the distance.

  His gaze was calm, and he sauntered along as if the wind were the fairest May zephyr rather than a biting February breeze. Were he younger and inclined to smile, he’d be attractive. Not handsome—his features were too severe for that—but striking.

  His dark hair was so far beyond unfashionably long as to be caught back in an old-fashioned queue. His eyes were an icy slate gray that matched the shade of the overcast sky. His nose was an aquiline lordly proboscis, and his mouth was nearly grim.

  Eric had had a winsome smile, and his sons had inherited that gift.

  Penweather’s voice, though, was all smooth fire and sweet honey. A voice like that was meant for reading naughty poems late at night, for whispering compliments no gentleman spoke to a lady in company.

  “You have my thanks too,” Penweather said, “for taking the fugitive in hand. I keep expecting Pandora to settle down, but her behavior becomes only more outlandish.” His tone was more one of longsuffering then censure.

  “She is your only child?” Daisy asked.

  “Yes, and you will doubtless think of ill of me, but I shudder to contemplate what she’d get up to if she had a comrade in arms. I employ three nursemaids, a nanny, and a rotation of footmen to keep peace in the nursery as it is.”

  He escorted Daisy up the steps, and then she was facing Casriel. He, despite being her oldest brother and one of her closest neighbors, also Henry’s god-father, did not know where to look. Did he but know it, Daisy would gladly have begged off this weekly ordeal, except that she was determined to have some answers from him.

  “Daisy, I see you’ve made Lord Penweather’s acquaintance.”

  “His lordship’s and Miss Pandora’s. What is amiss with your hospitality, Casriel, that the poor child went scampering into the elements like that?”

  Daisy had meant the question as a jest, but Casriel’s brows twitched down in consternation.

  Penweather kept his hand over Daisy’s where she’d rested her fingers on his forearm, or Daisy would have simply ducked into the house, and declared herself in need of a few minutes’ privacy in a guest room. The gentlemen would assume she was tidying her hair, while she would in fact be calming her temper.

  “Lord Casriel could offer blandishments without number,” Penweather said, “herds of stuffed animals, fairytale books without limit, and Pandora would still get up to mischief. I vow she is a changeling.”

  “Perhaps she is bored,” Daisy said, which caused Casriel’s brows to rise. “A pet might help.”

  Penweather’s gaze went to the windows on the third floor. “She regularly tosses her stuffed elephants out the window. One does not trust her deportment with a hapless pet.”

  Daisy had lately felt like pitching all manner of valuable objects out the window. Eric’s pipes, his field boots, his collection of farrier’s puzzles and snuff boxes. They remained as he’d left them, and would be packed away for his sons, just as soon as Daisy could stand to look at the damned things.

  Then too, she really did need to know if Eric had made any specific bequests to his children before she tossed the detritus of his life into the attic.

  “The solution to your dilemma is plain, my lord,” Daisy said, dragging Penweather toward the house. “You will simply have to provide Pandora with a bevy of younger siblings, and she will be so busy managing them that she’ll no longer take the air in shocking dishabille. Come along, Casriel. His lordship has no coat, and one wants a cup of tea after capturing the visiting princess.”

  The comment about younger siblings was another opportunity for Casriel, the oldest of nine, to take offense where none had been intended. His expression became that of the polite host, which in its way was worse than the wary older brother.

  Daisy felt a sob building, for no earthly reason in the world, so she kept up a brisk pace into the house, and prayed that Lord Penweather was adept at idle conversation, for her attempts at small talk were apparently doomed. She hated these visits to the Hall, but she was determined that she and her brother have a frank and detailed discussion.

  Soon. Very soon, if not today.

  “Siblings,” Casriel said as they approached the library, “can be among life’s greatest comforts. They are both friend and family, if all goes well, and they know us longer than even our parents do, in the usual course. I consider my brothers and sisters among my greatest treasures.”

  Penweather held the door for Daisy. “Then you are
blessed indeed, my lord. My family associations are few and distant. Tell me, my lady, have you children? You must, for you knew exactly how to foil Pandora’s escape.”

  How lovely of him, to ask after the children rather than after Eric. If Daisy had to reply even once more to the question, “Don’t you miss him terribly?” she’d scream, stomp on her horrid black bonnet, and engage in public profanity.

  “I have two boys, my lord, nearly eight and nearly seven, and a daughter a bit younger than Pandora. I can scold fluently in dog Latin, spy unicorns in the air, and give orders like a pirate captain.” Though she’d all but forgotten how to sleep through the night, waltz, or laugh.

  “The lemon drops are an inspired touch,” Penweather said. “I’m partial to them myself.”

  When had anybody referred to anything Daisy had done or thought as inspired? She undid her bonnet ribbons and hung the dratted hat on the antlers of a buck murdered years ago. The old fellow was a bit motheaten, but he was a fixture from Daisy’s childhood and she was inordinately glad Casriel hadn’t retired him to a bonfire.

  Daisy’s cloak came next, and Casriel draped it over the back of the chair at the desk. He was frowning, probably concluding that his baby sister had lost weight, but then, his baby sister had been developing the rounded proportions of a heifer at spring grass prior to Eric’s death.

  Eric’s assessment, offered with that winsome smile of his.

  The few dresses she’d chosen to dye black were loose on her now, and she’d selected outfits she didn’t particularly like rather than ruin her favorites. So few women were flattered by black, that even the clothes a widow wore formed another blow. They made a lady feel as unattractive on the outside as she feared she was on the inside.